Seeing how you unappreciative faggots don't want to make use of my TALENT *scoff* , I'm just going to write a long blog about how I feel and my views on life.

Frankly, I feel great. Optimistically pessimistic. I love my life, love my friends, love myself and look forward to the next, looking on to the future. THE FUTURE. I hate the future. Like now, NOW IS THE FUTURE. And my days in school were the present. Currently, I'm stuck in a limbo world in between the two points in time, and I have nowhere to go. It's summer now, for me ( TAKE THAT, AMERICA ) and I feel like I'm the only guy with no plans. With nothing to stop me from wasting time looking back to my awesome year. All my good friends are vacationing, and I'm stuck at home, reverting from my social, self-realized self who is humorous, sociable, and incredibly sick, to myself from back when I was that one nerd with no life and little friends. I feel like I'm going back to that pathetic version of me, all because I'm not in contact with my buddies.

If you've known me for say, since 2008, you'd probably notice that I've become a lot less active since then, in the forums especially. Well, for me that is a good thing, that is a great thing. During the year, I merely used NG as means to let me release my thoughts, and go back to them, remember them, and relay them to my pals the next day. NG is no longer a social haven for me, and the only reason I feel attachment to this account nowadays is because all my music is on this one account. I don't care if you don't think it's good music, music is my life, my passion, and nothing will change that.

Another thing making me feel like I'm reverting to my asocial, incredibly annoying 2008 self is that I'm spending too much time on the computer. I fear that before the summer ends I will once again foster feelings for this community, I've let go of all my cares about this site once before, and look where that got me; one step closer to being a social butterfly. I'll never let myself go back to being that pathetic nerd who is always trying to be cool, to be appreciated, to be an individual. No! God forbid that I do that again. This year, first I made friends, then with those friends, I was able to be whoever I wanted to be. I was able to make tons of inside jokes, Oasis related with one friend, classmate related with the other, all with my friends. I had my networks, and at times the networks overlapped, and it was good.

Also, to further enforce my status and state of being as a not-nerd, I have taken up playing guitar, and by taken up I mean started practicing more often. I can play Plug In Baby, and most of Purple Haze, except for the solo because I haven't really listened to the solo, Under the Bridge and Supersonic. I sometimes feel way more fulfilled and satisfied when I play guitar than when I play videogames nowadays, which is something new. Music is eating up so much of my life, it's uncanny. But it's opening up new doorways for me, new planes of reality that I will be able to explore.

And nothing is gonna stop me. Nothing is gonna stop me from living my teen years to the fullest, unlike most of you pathetic worms. Nothing will stop me from living life the way it is meant to be lived, NOTHING!

And on that note, I end my long speech to no one in particular. I'll go back to using the computer now, because my cell phone is fucked, I have practically none of my friends' numbers on it, and I have no get togethers scheduled.

Live Forever

JE